my mother is going away for uni next week, starting saturday. it is the first time i've been on my own in ages, after i threw my ex out no one would leave me on my own, and i'm not sure how to deal with it. on the one hand i want to lock allthe doors and hide with my babies, but on the other hand i'm kinda looking forward to living on my own. friends have already intimated that they will stop by and keep me company, but i don't really know what i want right now. i do know that i am nervous, but in a good way.
yeah, evenings are when i'm most looking forward to/dreading. its been a very long time since i was alone with my thoughts and i'm not sure what they're going to say to me. but on the other hand, i've been banging on for ages that i need some time to myself to reflect.
Evening alone ? How can you be alone if the evening with friends to go out and see and all the books in the world waiting to be read ? (with a good glass of wine).